Our Life: An Update

Well since my last post one pretty big thing has happened to Tyler and I...we got MARRIED haha. It was a beautiful ceremony, on a beautiful day, in a beautiful location. Although there were only two people on my side attending, I felt the happiness of everyone there and the support from them all as well. It was great seeing some faces and even better meeting some new ones. I have now gone from having a big family to having a GIANT family and I love all of them.

Also, over Thanksgiving Tyler and I went to Alexandria, LA to visit my dad's family and surprise my grandparents for their 60th wedding anniversary. It was a great trip considering the fact I haven't been able to see them, or hug them in almost seven years. My cousin Jessie was the first to meet Tyler and see tackled us both at the airport gate with a giant hug from the deepest part of her heart. She is the best and I missed her so so so much. Jessie and I have always had a way tight bond and it was great to see her again and see the bond that her and Tyler created as well.

That is about it for now...I have another interview at work coming up on Monday so I am really looking forward to that. I'm also working on a secret Christmas present for my wifey that will probably make her cry. :p

Write you all soon,
Tanner

Interesting Topic for Discussion

So on my company's home page they ask a company-wide poll question. Today, they posted one that intrigued me, and fueled me to begin some sort of debate. The question was simply this:

"Is it worth it to pay more for a 3D movie?"

Now, this is a very interesting topic. 3D movies seem to be the new trend for all movie lovers, however are they TRULY a better cinematic experience than any other 2D film? Many blockbuster movies have been released in 3D, such as, Avatar, Despicable Me, Toy Story, The Christmas Story, Glee 3D etc., but is it really worth the money to experience a 3D film? In my opinion I do not think 3D is all that great. I don't really enjoy wearing those goofy glasses, and in reality, most of the 3D effects really are not that great. Typically, for the 3D movies that I have seen, it seems that the opening logos that introduce the fact that the feature presentation that your about to watch is in fact, 3D, is the best 3D animation in the entire film. Maybe it is just the movie's that I have actually seen in 3D weren't that great for 3D, but maybe not. I want to hear YOUR opinion. So I pose this question to you, the reader.

Do you, as a modern time movie enthusiast, enjoy the experience of a 3D movie, and do you feel that experiencing it is worth the money you dish out?

Expressing Myself

 

Man…life has been real crazy since the last time I posted on here.  I’m still working hard and there is no surprise there.  I have some new opportunities that have popped up that I am taking advantage of this week, and I’m excited to see where that is going to lead me.  But that is not what this blog is about…

Everyone basically knows I’m getting married next month.  They have all known for awhile.  I really don’t understand why I am still receiving all kinds of grief about it.  I have been engaged for a year, get over it.  I really do not care what your opinion is, but one of the first conversations I have with you, you should not tell me that I am too young to get married and that I should not do it.  Bitch, I don’t even know you!  Also, I don’t smoke and I don’t drink.  I don’t plan on ever doing either.  Drinking is a really big temptation in my life, and I really don’t want it to be in my life.  I used to drink, okay? Okay.  I stopped because Tyler saw something that I did not.  I would get drunk when I was lonely or depressed.  It had gotten to a point to where I was drunk and showed up to my friends house that way and had to relax for a while before I sobered up.  Drinking when you are emotional is not a good time to drink.  Depressive drinking is how alcoholism can start.  I have seen some pretty depressing days in mine life.  Some of these days I did things that I regret, for instance drinking.  I also gave myself some pretty severe eraser burns on my arm and hand until I started bleeding.  What all of this is saying is that I have a tendency to look for things that distract me from any form of pain, and I will try almost anything to take my mind off of it and focus on something else.  I feel that I do have addictive tendencies, and THAT is why I do not drink, so get off my case poop face.  Also, I have a fear of strip clubs.  I have never been to one and I have no, and will never have any desire to ever go to one!  They just seem degrading, disgusting, unsanitary, and uncomfortable.  Stop asking me and trying to persuade me to go because I will never go.  EVERRRR.  True friends can respect that and will not insist on pushing you into doing something that I do not want to do.  Another thing, I am devoted to help bring awareness to the slaughter of the oceans creatures.  I am well aware that there are no dolphins in Arizona.  I am not a retard.  The point is not to save them from where I am, it is to bring awareness around the world so people who have the means to help save whales, dolphins, etc. will.  To say that I’m not doing anything here because there are no dolphins in Arizona is extremely ignorant.  Tyler and I have been on the news twice for being at protests and every person who saw that became aware of the struggle, if they didn’t know already.  That is the goal.  In addition to that last bit, Sea Shepherd is a very dedicated, hard working organization.  To say that they do nothing by throwing stuff at a ship, shows how extremely retarded you are as a person.  If you know nothing about a cause, do not open your fucking mouth.  Lastly, I love Tyler with all of my heart.  I treat her the best I can because I love her.  My responsibility as a husband is to make sure my family will never want for a single damn thing their entire life.  Yes I take her to see every movie she wants to see even though she doesn’t go to see mine.  That is not her job to go with me.  She is not a movie person and I am perfectly fine with that.  She is perfect just the way she is.  Plus, I enjoy almost all of the movies I take her to see.  Pooh Bear is the shit bitch, so back off.  I take a lot of crap and shrug it off on the outside, but as you can see it does build up.  I do not appreciate some of the grief I have been taking over that last year, so I’d appreciate if you are reading this and feel it’s you, that you will make an effort to change.  There is a lot more to me than you get to see by being around me.  I am more than just a love stricken, working machine.  I am a person.  I bleed just like you bleed, and I feel pain just like you feel pain.  I have a long life ahead of me, I could use some people in my life to help make it go by easier.

-Tanner

People piss me off. TANNER SMASH!!!

Alright so I’m going to go off on quite a tangent here.  It is going to be a three part saga…so prepare yourself.

Part I: Politics. “OBAMA IS BAD!!!”

I am not one to preach on politics, Hell I don’t know much more than what I learned in Government class in high school.  But I obviously know a lot more than the people who blame our president for all the problems that our country faces.  So first off…the president of the United States of America cannot declare war all by his or her lonesome.  That power resides solely in the hands of the US Congress.  Also, the president is not capable of regulating gas costs at the pump.  How people come to the conclusion that Obama is raising prices at the tank is waaaaay beyond me.  I know some of you more intelligent beings that read this will think “Surely nobody is that dumb.” But Facebook has revealed these people to us and all we can think in return is “smdh.” Barack Obama may be the easiest person to blame for our countries problems, but he is not the just one, by any means.

Part II: Marriage. “REALLY?!”

Okay, so as many of you know I became engaged in September.  Therefore, Tyler and I can rightfully say that we started the whole engagement trend that is sweeping our Facebook walls.  But let’s take the time to examine the people who are so put out by the news that everyone is getting married shall we?  I’m going to TRY not to be too harsh here…marriage is something that two people share with one another when they are deeply in love and genuinely want to grow old together.  Who the F*CK do you think you are saying that it is annoying or ridiculous that people are getting married left and right?  If you are seeing these posts of engagements or hearing news, you obviously have some sort of tie to these people and you should be a good friend and be happy for them. NOT post on Facebook mocking it and saying that people are rushing it, and that it is stupid.  Sure, SOME PEOPLE may rush into marriage and SOME PEOPLE do not think the marriage through all the way.  But it is not up to any single person to openly criticize something so personal.  If you are one of these happiness bashers, you are obviously not in a committed relationship, most likely not happy with the life you are currently living, and possibly not very cute. JUST SAYING!  But dear heckler, I do wish you find that joyous happiness one day with that one person who makes you happy.  I wish that you will one day find that person who will show you the happiness that I know and love.  I stand firmly by my decision to get married at 19, and nobody is going to sway me from that. TnT forever and a day bitchaz.

Part III: Oh shit. “Hmmm”

I forgot what my third thing was at this point…I’m sure I’ll remember it and post it at some point when one of you wonderful people point it out to me.

And lastly…if you are going to post one of those powerful inspiring statuses about how we need to stay true to the meaning of Easter Sunday, you might want to make sure you know what you’re talking about.  Jesus Christ did not die on Easter Sunday…he was resurrected and rose from the grave.

So ya’ll can stick that in your juice boxes and SUCK IT!! #drops.the.mic.

My life…in many words.

Well a lot has been happening lately.  I’m not entirely sure how long this post is going to be, I kind of have a lot to say.  My biological dad and my step-mom come in this week.  I can honestly say that I never would have imagined that I would be so excited.  It has been a full six years almost since I have seen them, I’m still extremely nervous, but I am looking forward to this weekend.  I’m currently starting my second month at SIC and I am making plans like crazy on how to further my career.  There are just so many opportunities, however I’m unsure if I even have close to enough time.  I’m currently pursuing the Scottsdale School of Underwriting, which is a PAID program that is twice my current salary.  It offers a guaranteed position as an underwriter, as well as a $3,000-$5,000 raise upon graduation.  I have never been more motivated and driven in my entire life.  I’m looking for every opening, and every class to further myself in the company.  I’m getting my name out there, shaking hands with managers and directors, and most of all, making outstanding impressions with more than satisfactory performance.  I have so much to work towards and so much fuel burning inside of me.  I’m beginning to get restless.  All I need to do is to find a calming point.  There is just SO much going on and SO much running through my mind. 

I want to be able to give Tyler and my future family the life that I never even dreamed of providing.  Starting out in a career so young, I could move to the very top.  I want to give Tyler the house she’s always dreamed of, the car she dreams of having, and the little black boys she wants to adopt .  There is just so much I’m reaching, and hoping for.  I just hope I can give it to her.  She is the absolute LOVE of my LIFE, she is my rock, she is my best friend.  I would wrap the Earth and the Moon up in a big box with a bow and give it to her as a gift every single day if I could.  She means everything to me and I want to show her every second.  People say we are so young, and we are rushing into things.  Put all I have to say is that they can blow it out their butts.  It is OUR life and it is perfect just the way it is.  We know that we are making the right decision.  We get to spend the rest of our lives together.  She is the most wonderful person I have ever met, and I love her with my whole heart.

“You want the moon? Just say the word and I'll throw a lasso around it and pull it down.” – It’s A Wonderful Life

Anticipation, irritation, aggravation, and finally...celebration

So after a long two month period of job searching, I finally am rewarded with a job at Scottsdale Insurance Company. I basically grew up at this office when I was a kid, spending time before and after school there, and now I'm returning 8 years later as an employee. My job position is a mail clerk, I have yet to find out whether or not I'll be a part of proccesing or whether I'll be a part of distribution. I am personally pulling for distribution so I can see people and make connections for when I can move up in the future. This job means so much for me and Ty. Not only is it twice what I was making working at ACE, but I recieve benefits such as health, dental, and vision. With this new, higher salary, I am also able to buy Tyler a wedding ring that is a lot bigger and a lot nicer. She absolutely loves it. I'll also be able to afford my ring and suit. A lot of things are starting to look up, which means only brighter days ahead for the both of us. This job is a beginning to a new journey, and it is a start to a future career. I am over the moon excited and I cannot wait for monday to start.

On Thursday Ty and I are heading to Las Vegas for a couple of days to sort out some wedding logistics. Everything is starting to come to a close and all of t's are being crossed and all of the i's are being dotted. This is going to be the biggest day of our lives together, and I want it to be perfect, not only for her, but for me as well. With any luck, it will be...I'm sure of it.

The future is coming...

Many events have occured in the last year...some written about some not. The past has happened and nothing can change that. What can be impacted, however, is the future. Every person has the ability to decide who they will be, but the biggest question I have for myself is... "Who will I become?" I know who I want to be... I just don't know how to acheive it. What I do know is that the people who have made their way out of my life have all contributed to shaping the man I am today. I in no way believe that I am perfect, i'm probably the furthest from that, but I do believe that I am a good person for the most part. I believe that I will, somehow, manage to be a good husband and father. But that fear still lingers..."What if i'm not?" I mean, after all I am only 18. But, others around me have seen it, and Tyler tells me I will be. So obviously I'm doing something to show it. The only thing that is 100% certain, is that the present is fantastic, and I am happy. That's something I haven't been able to say a whole lot in my life...but I can proudly say it now without a doubt in my mind.

"The past is history, the future is a mystery, but every day is a gift. That's why it is called the present."

PART II:
But probably the most life changing thing about the job is the $28,875 salary...that's basically $13.50 and hour. That's an extra 1500 a month to pay bills and save to give Ty the best wedding I can give her. Ace just isn't cutting it any more and it won't take me anywhere. I'd do anything to get this job. I want a career.

PART I:

So today I had a couple interviews at Scottsdale Insurance. The first position is for a Senior Imaging Processor...this job I can't even express how much it could mean for me. It is a great entry position, and has incredible opportunities to move up through the company. On top of that they cover health care for me and my girl once we get married.

So the wedding date has officially been finalized :) I'm getting married October 22nd and I can barely contain my excitement! Ty is working on her kick ass shoes and invitations, her bouquet, and my boutonniere are all on the way :) this is the happiest time of my life right now and it will only get better from here!
Until next time.
- Tanner

So I just wanted to make a quick post about the most amazing person in my life...Tyler, you came into my life a little over a year ago and instantly I knew there was something special about you. Only a short month later was I head over heels for you...I don't show you enough, and I sure as shot don't express enough how much I love you and much I appreciate everything you do. I owe all of my happiest memories to you, and I owe my happiness to you.

You have been my rock and my best friend in every situation, even when I don't deserve it. Lately I haven't been the nicest to you, and I am so incredibly sorry baby, but I am going to make it up to you and I'm going to work on being a better husband before we get married in 17 months. I love you with all of my heart Tyler Neeley, and there isn't a single person in this universe that could ever make me feel the way you do.